I've come to the conclusion that I just love Scrapheap Challenge!





It's like my favourite show on TV I wish I could compete on it I would weld so much stuff together!!!! and make the freakin awesomest thing which I have to make ......... whatever that may be.....

..........it probably would fall apart and I would lose horribly, but it would be freakin awesome!!



.....so who wants to come over and play scrapheap challenge with me?? ...................on a much smaller scale, with no car engines or welding ( because I really think I shouldn't be allowed near those things unsupervised XD [or even supervised] )



WOOOOO I'm so excited!!!!!! I'm going to go anglegrind the roof off my car

POCUPINE TREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



TRAINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



...............*gasps for air*


OMG THE CONCERT WAS AMAZING AND STEVE WILSON DOESNT WEAR SHOES AND AND AND THEY PLAYED TRAINS AND IT WAS AMAZING

some time in the middle of the concert someone yelled out;

"We love you steve .................... SO PLAY TRAINS!!!! "

hahahahahahahaha

and during the part which goes "When I hear the engine pass I'm kissing you wide. The hissing subsides, I'm in luck. When the evening reaches here you're tying me up. I'm dying of love, its ok"
He sung it really slow and emotionally with long pauses inbetween~
and when he got up to "I'm dying of love...."
someone shouted "Its OK "
it was cute


and and oh I have a MILLION things to say about the concert~~~~~

A MILLION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


but i'll skip to the best part!


I GOT GIVEN A PICK FROM THE GUITARIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[link]

my precioussssssssssssssssss



I M D Y I N G O F L O V E

I T ' S O K A Y



They didnt touch the audience at the end of the show though ....... *dissapointed* ........ I'm sure you all know of my dream to touch Steve Wilson ................
and i was all like "COME ERE!!!!!! PLEAAAAASSSEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!" *screams in anguish*

but yeah
then the guitarist got a pick and was about to throw it to me~ and I was thinking 'oh man, whatever you do make sure you catch it!!!!!'
And he chucked it to me, and I caught it and then I screamed in joy
and I've been beaming ever since



aaaaaaaaaaaand ...... I cant think of what else XD I'm going to go to sleep now so I can dream about my pic ^___________^

Things I Like;

Singing in the shower
Chocolate
Iced Chocolate
Chocolate Milkshakes
Strawberry Milkshakes
Banana Milkshakes
Vanilla Milkshakes
Exploring creeks and bushland places which are hidden
Taking photos of the places I find
going "WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" at concerts
reading manga : )
Hooded jackets ( whenever I see one I have to buy it and take it home and make out with it )
WALKING. ( it's my favourite mode of transport )
Receiving packages
Having 2 hot showers a day when the weather is cold. ( Sometimes I 'accidentally' fall in the creek so that I have an excuse to have another shower XD )
sleeping with the heater on in my room all night ( or the fan if its summer time )
Shoes without laces
buying new clothes XD





Things I Hate;

When my ipod battery is low!!
Lime Milkshakes ( I assume )
The taste of lipstick
Glad Wrap. ( It makes me angry )
Parallel parking. or any kind of parking. and changing lanes. and changing out of 5th gear. and....
Going to places that arent my scene at night time
Feeling sick : (
Feeling like Im alone
Feeling like I suck
When no CD shops within a 500,000km radius of here have the CDs I want in stock
Zombies ( the mindless people who dont have morals )
Zombies ( the undead kind )

"I want you as the dream, not the reality
that clumsy goodbye kiss could fool me
but Im looking back over my shoulder
at you, happy without me"







Today did not go to plan.

In fact, I think it went the exact opposite way to what I planned. ( Or maybe I subconsciously knew it would end this way )

and If its possible to feel every single emotion all at once - then thats how I feel right now.




I spent the day with him to say goodbye before he leaves....

....his response to 'before the landslide' was ( and I quote ) "it looks ok"

............*insert emoticon of me getting my heart ripped out and stomped on here*
but I shoud've expected that response from him.......he's never complimented my art..........and he probably didnt even realise what it meant to me.....
but still. it upset me abit

So then we went to the beach and I decided that we should go for a swim in our underwear.
We didnt have towels and the water was freezing, so we sat on the rocks to dry off. It was kinda nice


and then we went back home for a hot shower.
Then I fell asleep on him on my bed for the entire duration of 'The Sensual World' by Kate Bush.
When I woke up he said he'd miss me. I hoped he meant it

Then we said our goodbyes and I went for a walk alone.



I feel ok. kinda peaceful. but a little regretful at the same time.



..... I can still smell his cologne on me ............. and I cant decide whether I want to wash it off imediately or stop showering forever......


I think today was just a day to let go of all my issues with him and spend the last moments in the bliss of ignorance.

I don't like to be ignorant. But sometimes things arent so clear cut, and whatever decision you make is both bad and good at the same time. So I may as well just do whatever.

And though I dont like being used..............I think today wasnt so much about him using me, as it was about me reminiscing and my need for closure


and so that chapter closes~

Hi ............um........... I was going to write a big long journal but then I decided I don't wanna


So .......this little pointless one will keep my frontpage company until I feel like venting stuff




peace all~
Hope you all had a good easter break